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Monday, September 18, 2017

Holy Project Fest!

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  What a weekend!! My days have gotten so busy this year, busier than any other time in my life that I can actually remember. A great deal of it has to do with me having joined a local Unitarian Universalist Church this year, as well as my knitting and yarn dyeing business doing pretty well (yay!). 

   This past weekend, I got startitis something bad, and ironically, Saturday I ended up spending most of the day working on my HAED (Heaven and Earth Designs) cross stitch project to cool my jets. This one (called Mother and Child):

  Otherwise, this is literally all the projects that I brought with me to work (did I work on each one during lunch? Of course not! I just worked on one!).

1) The designing bug has bitten me and after a few rough starts I am flowing along happily with this side to side shawl in worsted weight (440 yards) with eyelets to spice it up. Test knitting will start by October :). Yarn is my Utah Skies. I cannot wait to see it pool! May be called, "Walk With Me".


2. Next is a Sockhead Hat by Kelly McClure (I cannot believe it is free still). This is an earlier version of Utah Skies, but it is more like the beach, instead of the vibrant orange-brown I use now. So yay for a hat that will remind me of the beach! :)


3) Who doesn't love a little crocheting in their life? Hence the Goddess Shawl by Maria Merlino.  I'm making this for those who love a little goddess in their life (and having their backs lol). Making it a little wider than the pattern calls for. We'll see how it goes. Knitpicks Mighty Stitch is just the ticket (super squishy)!


4) I also having with me a shawl I started this weekend called Changing Leaves Shawl by Susan Gressman. I'm using a cake of Lion Brand's Mandala yarn and am looking forward to more colors. :) 

On top of all of these I finally started my husband a pair of toe up socks (hate knitting socks haha). Hurts my elbow and hands to work on socks too much too. But it will be good. 

  This weekend is my birthday, so I'll be heading down to Long Island to be dropped off at a beach for a few hours of knitting. I don't care if it really will be 80, I need to be at the beach and just relaxing. Watch me forget my chair. 

Thank you for the views I received to my blog two weeks ago of angsty poetry. Occasionally it just needs comes out, and I love writing poetry.

  Be well and have a great week!

Jen
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Wednesday, September 6, 2017

Angsty Poetry, Check.



Not knitting related.



When my heart is in uproar
When all of my focus is gone
When I need to find steady ground
But all I hear are clamoring voices
Calling for me to keep on moving forward
Keep on sacrificing my dreams.
Perhaps this job will provide stability
But what is the cost to my soul?
The grateful time has faded
The lies and advantage is fading
I don't want to lay here defeated
Typing word by word in my novel
While feeling completely uninspired
Completely used up
Completely fed up
Completely done with how this is going.
No, it's not always bad
And no, it's not the worst job I've had.
But it's time has passed,
I need to move on,
I need to use my education
I need to use my life experience
I need to not be put down
Because there are times I need to be there for my family.

There isn't a story here that is going to be wonderful
There isn't a story here that will have a happy ending
I need to find the good enough story
The story that will bring me back around.

Perhaps my focus will come back,
Perhaps it is just the full moon tonight
Calling me
Telling me
Move into the light.
Move into a place where you can breath
Where you are doing what is right
And politics are not stealing your soul
Where lies are not spoken
And you are not put down for being
Compassionate
Kind
Upstanding
Focused on Family
And determined to do the right thing.

The right thing.
Where I am damned if I do
Damned if I don't.
This is the job I'm in.
This is the hell I'm in.
It's not always bad.
But it is not good for my soul.
My soul craves more
More than lies
More than put downs
More than gas lighting
More than the idea
That I have to be here
No matter what
No matter what happens at home
No matter what I'm juggling.
I still have to be perfect.
But I'm not perfect.
I need reality
This isn't reality
It is gaslighting
It is making me feel less
When I do everything asked.

Everything.

Suffocated.