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Sunday, June 28, 2015

To Be Honest: Chronic Depression

I usually try to keep my blog happy and upbeat, but that goal has made it hard to write a blog post lately. So if you are looking for a fun and funny blog post, this will not be it, and I just cannot make apologies for it. 




 DEPRESSION sucks and part of depression is to feel lonely. I wonder if those who suffer from depression are more likely to have strong introverted personality traits. And I have definitely felt lonely lately. I haven't been able to go out to my knitting groups due to life events, and was also sick. 

As someone who is chronically depressed, it is so easy to feel lonely. I wonder if I'm enough. I know that as someone who is chronically depressed I am not the best of friends, I draw back and sometimes it takes time for me to reach out again. This was especially painful in high school and lonely. I would date someone for two weeks and break up because I would draw back, made it hard to actually go anywhere with a relationship (no sluttish behavior, I was not sleeping around at all lol). 


Along with a wave of minor depression, my knitting mojo has taken off on vacation. But I did finally manage to cast on a poncho for work, though the pattern I wanted is causing me to do some changes. Deloverly by Karen Walker, the pattern calls for sport weight yarn but I've added some stitches and am using a fingering weight instead from Celestial Strings Yarn

  
    My daughter and I also went out to see Inside Out, which made me cry, last night. My point here is that just because it is hard for me to move and do anything, either from my depression or my lack of a thyroid, I still do things. But I was exhausted after the movie just from being around all those people in the theater. 

  Done whining. Promise. Next post will be better. The nice thing about having been dealing with depression for 26 years? I know it will pass.



Monday, June 22, 2015

Been a While

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I know it's been a while since I've posted anything, and I'm sorry for that. But I've been exhausted and sick off and on since the last post. Pretty sure it's a mixture of allergies and sinus infection that has gotten so bad there is a doctors office visit on my calendar for this evening. You know it's bad when you're so dizzy and exhausted you don't want to knit, right?

So there has not been much that I've been working on. Finished a few things, but not blocked.

Took my kids to an awesome Girls Knit Too event held by my cousin who runs the Company and blog Triskie McGee (Facebook Page; Blog). She started the event to help girls in our community learn to skate and feel better about just being themselves. I know where I'll be most Sundays lol.
This is my 3 year old having a ball at the event, my 7 year old wasn't so thrilled.

Something I have had the energy to do is work on my story, which I'm rewriting (again) and posting up as a free book available via an alternate blog. So if you are interested in that, check it out at harpypolitics.blogspot.com . It's about a young woman who can turn into a harpy, which is simply a being with wings (yes she can fly), talons, completely black eyes, and the ability to wield magic (but not a job). An urban fantasy story, set in upstate ny. If you want to be part of a reading group I am half developing, let me know!

  What is everyone working on? Let me know! I changed the settings so that even anonymous anyone can comment, hopefully that helps!

Be well!
Jen
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Monday, June 8, 2015

Weekend Flu And Still Knitting

This weekend was supposed to be full of posting fliers in anticipating of this Saturday's World Wide Knit in Public Day! I'm hosting the one in Cobleskill, and it's going to be so much fun!

Instead, last Thursday what I thought was a bad cold hit me and by Friday night I was suffering from fevers. Not high, but high enough to give me chills and lots of sweats. They also messed with my dreams, which turned into either what I was watching that day (a lot of Star Trek Voyager on Netflix, like a binge-level type of "a lot" haha) or what I was reading (apparently, reading Ape House by Sara Gruen is not smart when you're sick).

Though I was too sick to knit on Friday and Saturday morning, I began to feel incrementally better and pushed through to finish the Mares' Tale Shawl that came from Poststitch.com last month. So woot on that account, two WIP's down; Mares Tale Shawl and the Earth Shawl from Fiddle Knits.

No, they have not been blocked, I do not know when they will be blocked as my last weekend I was in no condition to keep my cats from them while they dried (and I have an idea for that) and I only can block one item at a time.

Ironically, my husband is worried about the pain in my arm so kept bugging me to stop. I wonder if he thinks it will fall off. If it falls off, I wonder if I could get RPI to design a knitting bionic arm? Hmm :D

An update on that:

   Friday, I went to a chiropractor out of desperation and he told me that my spine was great, but that I likely have tendonitis in my right shoulder, elbow, and wrist (on top of the carpal tunnel he also agreed with). Yay right? So yesterday I have continental knitting another try (I'm a thrower) and it made the pain worse, so I stopped. I need a crocheting project..

  Anywho, I've plucked Wednesday from my days I can knit. So now I can only knit on Sunday, Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday. This leaves nice spaces for my arm to heal, and it does actually feel much better.

More to come.. with pictures next time. Promise. Brain.. shutting... down... zzzzzzzzzzz