Sometimes I do feel as if life itself is bipolar. I have 21 days left at a job I don't particularly like, and I'm so grateful to have a husband that can pick up the slack and work so I can stay home, help with daycare of our two little ones and finish up my master's degree with internship and externships over the next year. I'm excited that he was awarded today for all of his hard work the past month with a permanent full time job.
Minutes after I heard that, I was sent an email update from another blog that just broke my heart. The blog "The Secret Life of the American Working Witch" (found here: http://mypaganworld.blogspot.com/2013/02/saying-goodbye-update-on-madison.html?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+Draiocht+%28Draiocht%29) has been keeping everyone up to date about a little girl named Maddie who was best friends with her five year old granddaughter. Over the past 4 days that little girl had gone from being healthy and happy to being sick with last stage lymphoma and died either today or last night.
I had done my best to send energy and made sure that I visualized on the picture posted of her on that website. But the tragedy occurred, and we all mourn at the horror of it for her family. My imagination is entirely too good, I have a 5 year old and an 18 month old and the idea just shakes me to my core. The same as when the Newtown shootings occurred. My soul quaked at the idea and my heart bled for those poor people who were going through the horrors of those experiences. There are no other words for what I felt then those.
little one with sweet calm eyes
a families spirit lay shattered to pieces
no rhyme or reason
just sadness and despair
but this I know for sure
that little one with sweet calm eyes
mischief-maker and hug giver
is spinning her soul around you
with love and kindness she sails
around and around
through and through
she has not left your side.
feel her love
let it heal you.
By the way.
Blessed Be, until you meet again.