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Tuesday, January 25, 2011

New York State Financial Issues

Now I will admit, I am an avowed liberal. I'm Pro-Choice (but not pro-abortion), I believe that health insurance should be available to everyone, I believe in most of the socialistic practices we have in this country. But, as with anything, they cost money. There is a big debate in New York State Government about the budget, they say there is a 10 billion dollar deficit and they need to come up with it somewhere, such as Medicaid. Now I will be the first to say that if there are abuses, we should be able to track them down. But I read an article (http://www.crainsnewyork.com/apps/pbcs.dll/artikkel?Dato=20110123&Kategori=SUB&Lopenr=301239977&Ref=AR&Show=0&template=printart ) Cuomo Faces Medicaid Hurdles
By Erik Engquist and Jeremy Smerd
Crain's Health Pulse January 23, 2011

Which actually says that though medicaid costs, in New York, 54 Billion, we only pay for 14 Billion of that, the rest comes from Washington and other localities. So what does that mean to me? It's kind of like this statistics class I'm taking, if the government officials can dupe the general public into rejecting a group of the population that they already feel as a drain, even if they aren't, then they can cut Medicaid without getting voted out of office. But what if they are lieing about Medicaid being the problem? We all joke about how lawyers and politicians lie, so let's think about this for a minute.

  If you have a budget, and you spend a little here and a little there, and a little more over there, eventually you run out of money. This is a given no matter what, my lovely hubby does that on a regular basis with his smoking habit. But every once in a while we hear about "pork barrell" funding by the individual politicians, has anyone actually added up the cost of all of that money? Wouldn't it be amazing if it was more then the deficit? I would like to see every penny and every dollar of those pork barrel fundings added up so that we could see what exactly the total is, as well as how much the politicians get paid.

  Did you know that when this country was first created and our government had to make a decision, the representative's would call the session to halt, return to their consituents, hold a town meeting, and discuss how they were going to vote. Can you imagine that? Now, we never know what they are working on, the bill's are all hidden in code numbers and do you think you could actually get through to get a hold of your state senator, it's possible but not like it used to be. How far have we come?

  This is definitely a little off from my usual rants, but there it is. Hopefully some common sense in all the lies, not that anyone will read it haha.

Friday, January 21, 2011

A New Year.. But Some of the Same Old

So I'm still a cranky moody bitch, but I can blame some of it on pregnancy! I'm 9 weeks pregnant and got to see the babies heart beating yesterday (179 bpm) and boy did it wiggle alot, which was cute. It's still about the size of a grape but it's growing so fast it's crazy. Being pregnant is one of the strangest things that happens to the human body on this planet, think about it. We expand and expand and finally birth a baby painfully, and weird things happen during pregnancy too. I thought about putting strawberry jam on a hotpocket, mixing hot and sweet.

  This is my second pregnancy, and my daughter is 3 but will be 4 years old 3 days after the baby is due, I can pick a day to have a csection so I'll probably try and pick it earlier rather then later for a few reasons, though it depends of course on how the pregnancy is going. First of all, I would like to be home for my daughter's bday, many hospitals do not let little kids into the maternity ward to see their parents. Second of all, I don't want the babies birthday too close to Lizzie's so that, if they prefer, they can have separate birthday parties and everything. If they want to have shared bday parties, cool, if not I want to make sure they have that option. Individuals :D.

  My Lizzie keeps asking when the baby is coming home haha. So cute!

Monday, January 10, 2011

Pregnant and Sick

So there is alot of conversation on Ravelry about babies, there seems to be alot of women who are pregnant and I am one of them. I am terrified and here is my story of why.

I went into labor on a Monday night, by Tuesday morning I was in the hospital barely dilated, though I was a week and a half overdue. They gave me some pitocin among other things and had me wait it out. A day later (and the night was terrible, and not even because of the contractions but because I would moan every 15 minutes half awake and my mother woke me up to ask me to be a little more quiet, how is that for shades of my childhood), they broke my water, gave me an epidural and everything froze. I was only 3cm dilated and they went to far with the epidural and gave me a spinal tap instead. My daughter and my blood pressures began to plummet, everything began to go all dizzy like. I did get numb from the chest down. My husband magically appeared, after not being there this whole time, and they rushed me into an emergency c-section. Why do you have to hold your arms out like your on a cross? That is so uncomfortable and I just wanted to bring them in. Anyway, they took out my daughter, she barely cried (because she was busy pooping rofl) and sealed me up, sending me to recovery. While in recovery they kept asking me if I had a headache, to make sure I wasn't going to be paralyzed, and eventually feeling came back in my lower body again.

  This time they are supposedly doing a scheduled c-section and if anyone has a problem with doing a scheduled c-section after the way my body did not cooperate with labor last time, they can kiss my ass.

  I'm sick, I'm tired, I'm depressed, I just want to nap and tell everyone to leave me the fuck alone. Instead, I have to be at work, dealing with things I don't really care for. I really need a nap. So that is why I'm terrified.. I thought I was frightened before.. but after knowing what could go wrong? Luckily my daughter and I are fine and she'll be 4 this year by the time the baby is born, or soon after.

Goddess give me strength, I sure as hell need it.