Hard post to write, but as mom's and strong women, we have to do everything, right?
We are responsible for making sure the homework gets done.
We are responsible for keeping track of all appointments.
We are responsible for the bills
We are responsible for working full time.
We are responsible for organizing chore list for kids (and making sure it gets done)
We are responsible for buying the xmas presents..
We are responsible for putting up the goddamn tree and all decorations (even though the lights trigger migraines).
Wow, I am so tired. So overwhelmed. The holidays and colder seasons are always harder on me because I have to reconfigure money to pay for heating oil and the holidays have stressed me out since I was a little girl. But maybe I can ask my doctor for valium or something? Because, seriously.
If I say anything to family, I get the "you aren't responsible for everything, ask for help."
Why the heck don't you offer and step up? Why do I have to keep doing everything while no one notices that I feel like I'm drowning, clawing my way to stay above water.
Being 38 years old, I know these feelings will pass somewhat with the holidays. But still rough to have them.
I am just so freaking tired.